Walking On Water

The story of Christ walking on water is one of the most beloved stories in the gospel. The most important part of this story, for my personal life, not from a theological perspective, is Peter's failure to walk. Many times in my life I have felt like Peter, he is the biblical character that I feel closest to. In this story I understand his drowning, I am very familiar with feeling overwhelmed, like I am drowning and there is no escape. This is not to say that I feel overwhelmed by the difficulty of life, but instead by what I often perceive as the pointlessness of life. We do so many things and it seems as though we make no difference in the world. While I am now attempting to do more (such as writing this blog) I still often have difficulty believing that it will matter. There is so much of life, of existence, that feels like a waste of time to me that I often want to walk away from it all, live on a mountain, and do nothing. This poem reflects this feeling, and this story, which would by why I brought it up.

Dark tides o'erwhelm
As strength fades
Under beating of heavy waves
And I sink down beneath the sea
My mind is gone
My heart is lost
And I have not breath
To reach the surface
I drowned in darkness
Lost to thought and hope
And I plead with you
To raise me up
Set me upon the surface
And teach me once again to walk
Be the strength that I am lacking
The heart that I have lost
The hope that no more shines within my eyes
That I may serve you Lord
That all my life will please you
And by your blessing I might dwell